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Monday, September 17, 2007

love

its late but im still online using baby's lappy. im exhausted but somehow my eyes refuse to rest. not yet though.

its already the fasting month and this to me just sucks. i feel like im so far away from baby despite him being with me almost 24hours a day. maybe im being paranoid here. but heck,im longing for his touch. the way he kisses me suddenly when im asleep,the way he hold me tight when we're sleeping or when we kiss ever so passionately when the lift door closes. not being to do most of these things just makes it all weird. its like having him but not being able to enjoy him as it is. and this itself is making me a lil grumpy as the days goes by. arghh! how pathetic huh?! i miss my baby and i miss our usual moments. the fasting month is sure a tough month for me. no vulgarities,no fast foods in the afternoon or even no afternoon snacking with baby. all this has been a part of my life and it sure is hell trying to not do all of these.
whatever it is,i love my babyboy.
i love how he smile at me everytime we meet.
i love how he kisses my hand when its time to say goodbye.
i love how he looks annoyed every time im late.
i love his patience in dealing me as i know im tough to handle.
i love how he tries to comply my every demand when deep down,his stressing about money.
i love how he force himself to massage my back when he himself is in pain.
in short,i love how he sacrifice so much for me..
I LOVE YOU,SHUKOR NOORDIN!!

went to school for econs paper today.
it was monday and crap,the additional school song.
stand still as the command was given
my mind was back in wonderland when suddenly, there was this strong disgusting smell
it couldnt have been me cos i swear i took a bath every time.
furthermore,i wore deodorant and 2sprays of perfume.
so i must be smelling perfectly fine?
my nose began investigating despite knowing that it was a torture.
sure enough,it was from this fat ugly chinese guy.
he was bringing in the poison
fark it lah. what a thing to begin my week with.urghH!
he smell like he didnt took a bath for almost a month
i almost vomited as a stood beside him
in fact,i felt like telling him off
does he realise his sucha nuisance with that odour? gosh!!

so after paper,ayu called. this is how it goes:

ayu: u having menses ar?
me: yah,y huh?
ayu: aiyah,thought of going swimming with u. its my off day today leh
me: huh? today? i got plans with him leh. his off day liao
ayu: i noe its his off day lah
me: eh? how u noe?
ayu:cos i his scandal wat?!~
me: fuck u lah.
ayu:nolah,i call him lah since u never pick up my calls
............
ayu:so going anot?
me : sorry ar girl,cannot make it lah. sory yah
ayu: alaa,everytime i busy,u all look for me. but when i free,u all busy!
me: sory lah. next time k
ayu: kla klah...bye ar bye arr!
me: oh..oklor. bubbye
ayu: ur head lah. then bastard? i upset here,never comfort me one ar?
me: oh i have to huh?
ayu: yalah...

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so thats how it goes. ended up spending time with baby. sory girl, next time k sayang. nanti aku blanja kau bubble tea lah k. aahahha!